Selena's Soundtrack

This is the song by song recount of my life. In the lyrics of each you will find different parts of me at different moments of my life. What things were important and what mattered can all be seen on this list. These songs are my story.

Track 1 - Circle of Life (Lion King Soundtrack)

I think the choice of this song is pretty self explanatory and a very cliche song to represent my birth. But on a more personal note of why I chose it is because I was born under the Leo zodiac sign which is something that my mother constantly reminds me and my father's name is Rafael so he would be Rafiki, that lifts me up to present me to all the animals of the kingdom (aka the nurses and doctors that were there).

Track 2 - Carita de Sol (Tony Vega)

"Carita de estrella, carita de sol. Llegaste a la tierra sin ser esperada con tu bendición.
Cuando ya no quedaba esperanza. Cuando nadie aguardaba tu amor.
Carita de sol, regalo de la mano de Dios."

This song represents my baby years and how my mother felt (and still feels) about my birth. I came later on in her life, very unexpectedly; and so she has always considered me as a blessing. The song also speaks about how with the baby's arrival the house changes completely and life in not the same. With three older brothers in their teens and me coming as a newborn I'm sure things changed dramatically for my mom.

Track 3 - The Big Comfy Couch Theme Song

Track 4 Pappyland's Theme Song

Both Track 3 and 4 have the exact same explanation. THIS IS MY EARLY CHILDHOOD. I spent so much time as a child watching these two shows. Learning how to draw with Pappy and how to tell time with Loonette and Molly. Just watch the videos and those theme songs represent such a big part of me. And to this day I still have some of the drawings I made and can still sing the theme songs as if it was yesterday! 

Track 5 - The Fresh Prince Theme Song

"In West Philadelphia born and raised...." 
With just those simple words ANY 90's kid will immediately start singing in their best impression of my then and now crush Will Smith. That song is almost an anthem and in my life reminds me of watching that shows for hours with my older brother. I learned a lot of life lessons from Will and his family and it was such a great show that the repeats are still on TBS and I will watch them and laugh now just as much as I did then.

Track 6 - Pokemon Theme Song 

Yes, I was that geeky girl at 11 that much preferred playing Pokemon with the boys than Barbie's with the girls. And for one Christmas the best gift my mother could have given me was my very own red Pokedex. I remember I was the envy of all the boys on my street that didn't have one and I search for the features of all the 150 Pokemon (when that was all that there was). 

Track 7 - Yo te extrañare (Tercer Cielo)

This one is for you Wella. 
When I was 12 years old my grandmother died and I can still remember clearly all the events of that week and of the day of her passing. It was the first time that death had touched someone close to me and the fact that it was someone so important to me was something that I was not prepared to deal with. For a long time I was in denial and couldn't accept that she was gone. A few years later this song was released and I remember crying so hard the first time I heard it and then listening to it over and over again hoping that the chorus lyrics were true. This song definitely gave me a different perspective of the passing and let me go and be happy and do many things in my life with the knowledge that from wherever she is, she is watching. 

No llores por mi 
es tan bello aqui.
Quiero que seas feliz. Que te valla bien 
Y cuando te toque partir 
... espero verte aqui.

Track 8 - Gone Forever (Three Days Grace)

And so we enter the teenage years! As my first stupid decision (of many that were committed) I decided to date a guy after only two weeks of meeting him. We had things in common and at that time that seemed to be the only factor necessary for a relationship. Big Mistake. For 10 months he made my life so complicated and in the end miserable. We both had very explosive personalities at the moment, would constantly fight and in the end had a horrible break up. From this I learned so many things that helped me grow as a person. None the less this is the most appropriate song that comes to mind every time I think of him.

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now that you're gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better

Track 9 - Imperfection (Skillet) 

After being in that draining and emotionally abusive relationship, realizing the daddy issues I had and other drama in my teenage life I became very insecure and it all took a toll on my self esteem. When I first heard this song it was as if someone was singing the lyrics directly to me, someone who cared deeply about me and saw those issues. The lyrics spoke straight to my heart and I listened to it over and over wondering if someone actually cared about me that way. Later on, this song represented the found strength in me when I dealt with those issues and moved on. 

You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be

You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons

Track 10 - Cool (Gwen Stefani)

If anyone has an ex that they don't absolutely hate look at this video! Do it, do it now. (It's a lyric video so I'm sure they will explain itself) but this is the song that comes to mind if I think of my ex-boyfriend. He was my best friend in junior high school and after dating for a year things got complicated and we grew in separate ways. After breaking up and separating for a while we came to a point where we can talk normally again. And it's comfortable to have a friend that knows you so well and understands things of you in a way that not many other people would get. And so like the song says "After all that we've been through, I know we're cool".

Track 11 - Bitch (Meredith Brooks)

What kind of a girl soundtrack would it be without the Meredith Brooks anthem? 
This song represent the bipolarity truth that is my personality and anyone who has gotten close enough to me will attest to that without thinking twice. Plus in high school I was considered by many of my friends to be a bitch, which I will now accept with no problem. If I am being a bitch to someone, it's probably your fault for annoying me in the first place. (Just Kidding.) -not really

 I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Track 12 - Entra en mi Vida (Sin Bandera)

This is the absolute, without thinking about it twice anthem to the beginning of the relationship with my boyfriend. We were both very guarded people that really didn't want to fall for each other. It didn't make sense, it happened without any of us really trying for it and when we were together we literally didn't notice the clock. (Reason why we got in trouble a couple of times for staying after hours on school grounds). Looking back at all the events it makes sense now and I don't think I could find anyone more compatible for me than him. 

Track 13 - Friends Forever (Vitamin C)

Track 14 - El Wanabi (Fiel a la Vega)

Graduation Time! 

Friends Forever is by far the song that describes me and my high school friends. When it came to graduation time and the realization that we were going to different campuses and that everyone said that you lose your high school friends and the only life long ones are your college ones. We were worried. This all proved to be false as we are still very close to each other and celebrate all important events together and meet up as a whole group at least twice a year. 
So as well all move on and grown up and become important people with jobs and stuff we are all still close. 

THE THEME SONG FOR MY WHOLE LIFE 

This is the song that represents me leaving high school, entering college, senior year in college and for the rest of my life. I think the lyrics are very true because all the time that is what we are looking for: that one chance to prove what we are made of. The lyrics to this song are inspirational and true in a very crude way (typical of Fiel a la Vega) and they make anyone think of the purpose of your dreams and where you are heading. 

Track 16 - Still Into You (Paramore)

This song absolutely describes my relationship where it is right now. "I should be over all the butterflies but I'm into you. And baby even on our worst nights I'm into you". After almost 5 years together I'm still into him. I still feel the butterflies and get all dressed up whenever we're going out on a date. And like the song says no, it's not a walk in the park but it's worth it. 
P.S. You should totally watch the video, it's really fun and I swear you will be humming the song for at least a week after hearing it. 

Track 17 - Wind Beneath my Wings (Bette Midler)

This is the one song that will always, always give me a knot in the throat when signing it. Just writing about it and thinking of all that it means to me makes my eyes water. This is another life long song that represents the relationship I have with my mother. She is and always will be the wind beneath my wings, my greatest support and the one person who in her mind knows without a doubt that I will do anything I set my mind to. She is a strong woman that I admire both as a person and as a mother. And lately I've noticed (to my liking or not so much) how similar we are in so many things.